Ah! The outing was funnn~~~~ And it felt too short! We actually cooked as well! (erm... more like heating up the food though.. haha)

that was.. innovative! =)

Nice cosy corner with a swing in front.. I love west coast!

Joycelyn! =)

An unglam shot of someone using a broom attempting to retrieve our rugby ball stuck in the tree.. lol.. we played touch rug!!! Love it~~

Us! =)

Oh and we played captain's ball just now.. But I still miss playing it with my class.. We used to 'train' religiously every week... Ahh.... nice memories.. =)

Woo, I love Johnny's blog! Check out the song! =) Think it's gonna keep ringing in my head today lol.. "Big girls you are beautiful.." Yea! So please eat your chocolates and chips. =) Sigh.. My colleagues think that I'm some teenage girl who is so obsessed with my weight... (Never.. LOL) Cos sometimes I skip lunch.. But really not hungry ma.. Plus it's 'compulsory' for me to eat the 'ai xin zhao can' by my colleague which consist of 3 toasted slices of bread..

Hahaha.. Ok i'm off to play ball with my cg at west coast.. lol..

Have a good day!
Best regards. lol..

Loving my chocolates as always.. =)

The whole day I couldn't wait to share about this!!!

Ytd's prayer meeting was awesome~ It was incredible.. I was in the choir singing together with Dennis beside me and it was fun! But more than just that, the presence of God was so strong.. and I was deeply touched..

You remember at the beginning pst told us to pray for 15 mins? The first thing that came into my mind was my dad... He's been out of job for almost 3 weeks and the situation in my family was kinda tense.. So I prayed and prayed... and prayed some more... until I felt a peace in my heart.. (a kind that just comes out suddenly..) and then I went on to pray for other things..

Then in the midst of working today... I received an sms from my dad saying he's found a job! But wait, more than just a job.. The pay is more than the 2.8 k that he didn't expect.. ("if i can get $2.8k I will laugh my teeth out .." - dad before knowing the pay) and he's provided a new vehicle.. (to drive me and my friends ard with =P) and $100 hp bill... Plus it's near our place.. What's more, he didn't even have to go through interviews! Becos the employer knew a friend whom my dad worked for many years ago.. And ta da! He's starting work on monday.

Isn't God amazing...
I believe it's more than just a coincidence... It's a God-incidence

He hears our cries and He cares...

*Found love beyond all reason*

Ah, didn't go work today... Too tired... Had a deep sleep ytd to the extent that.. I donno.. My pulse was too low? To the extent that my leg gave way when I stood up and off that out-of-tune mickey mouse alarm clock... lol.. Anyway it has been a great day.. Been practising guitar just now and glad with my progression.. Yaaay~~ One day..... Hmmm... *deep thoughts*

Anyway, ya I'm a competitive person... And my whole life, I only have 1 loyal competitor - myself.. In things that I set my heart to do, as much as I can, I will put in my best.. And in cases where I'm in a match or other competitions... I would still be competing against myself.. That's why during badminton match last week, I was quite pek cek.. Not becos I didn't get into finals but rather becos I knew that wasn't my best... And... I let that chance slipped by that easily... And in other things like 2.4? I would still run my best and gladly be the last.. Or my A level where I got only CCD.. I know it's below average but I'm contented becos I put in my best..
So for me, it's always about conquering the wicked inner voice which tells me to give up when things get tough.. maybe that's why I'm always in my own world? Lol...

Here's a Chinese proverb which I think is rather wow.. (and random)

"With time and patience, the mulberry leaf becomes satin."

=)

Today's the blackiest monday morning ever. Of all things, it rained so heavily in the morning... You could almost do white water rafting in the canal... And then I waited 1 hour for that bus at the crowded bus stop with a guy who almost always 'happen' to stand next to me.. at the bus stop AND in the bus.. I was totally freaked out by him la... That totally spoilt my morning.. UNTIL I reached my desk and saw 3 slices of french toast with tuna fillings waiting for me!!! =) That was a much needed perk for my mind and stomach hehe.. So blessed! Ever since I praised and thanked my office's dispatch for making nice toasts, he has been making it every morning!!! That's the power of acknowlegdement! Wahaha..

Ah, and I still kept thinking of STOMP THE YARD!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously I don't mind watching it again! For someone who watches movies less than 5 times a yr, it means that it's REALLY nice.. And DJ! (the lead actor..) =) Aww.... I like. =) He's the man ah huh ah huh... I like him ah huh ah huh.. LOL.. =)

And ytd while on the way home in the train.. I looked through my wallet and found a song that I wrote some time back... It has a simple and pleasant melody (more like a children's church song though).. and the lyrics goes like this...

Hold on tight unto Jesus
He will never let you go
In the rough waves of your life
Know that He is in control

(transpose)
Jesus reigns above all storms
You don't have to be afraid
Look to Him and He'll be there
Beside you and through it all

What a random day... Met my jc pos friend in the train and we decided to watch a movie together at cine.. Waha.. NO REGRETS!!!!! Had a sweet deal.. Ticket + popcorn + ice tea = less than $10.. That totally made us very happy.. And!!!!!! The show is real nice!!!!!!

Stomp the Yard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I give it 4 + 1/5 stars! 1 star for the lead actor... *swoon* I normally don't go gaga over actors.. (or any guys in particular...) But this one.. he's so appealing! I like guys with a humble face.. Haha.. Weird preference huh..

Ah, and it's really inconvenient not to have a hp! Missed out on a few impt calls... From my mum.. choir ic.. and Cai from India!!! Sigh... Anyway, my hp number has changed.. Will update u guys asap..

Best regards
Aileen Tan

waha..

Ah, went for badminton and table tennis prelim round today... VERY disappointed with badminton la..... Super..... Totally no form during the match... And the judging system.................. Sigh................ sorry to those I grumbled to........ *sings* Whatever will be... will be....


But I got into the finals for table tennis though (maybe cos too little competitors la... haha..) me and bird hehe.. I wish we can get into the top 2! =)





And I'm getting transluscent...... I need a revival soon.. wahaha.. You know what anot.. I'm white until colourful leh... Let me explain. Right now I'm so white until my face turns pink easily and my blue and green veins can be seen... LOL..... So that makes me colourful.. Hahaha~~~

And ta da! That's my big bulky cello.. waha..

Loves~

Ah... I'm loving my cello more and more each day~ Now there's an excuse to look at the mirror for an hour or so.... erm for practice's sake. =P Wish I can play some melodies... but I gotta get my basics right first.. which is endless bowing on the 4 different strings.. My all-time favourite is the G string! Waha.. erm cos.. It has the nicest sound and best angle to bow.. haha..

Loving my job still! It just gets more exciting each day wahaha.. Today's more challenging though.. We advertised on papers that we wanted production operators.. What happened was, they put my direct number down!! So my day was spent answering the influx of calls and the predictable questions about the job... lol.. AND YES!!! My dear Steph will be joining me at Siemens start of april!!! AH! Gonna turn the whole office into..... a nicer office. Haha! Yay can prank call her liaoo~~

Met up with my cg member to play badminton ytd... He's my fuhua junior too! He's really gd la.... Actions a lot.. Flowers all popped out.. wahaha.. After ytd, I realised my skills are really koyak.. My stamina is gone... My strength is at level 'gu niang'.. It just makes me less confident of saturday's competition.. Waha... Nevertheless aiya just go and try my best la.. Who knows... waha..

Oh ya! People have been saying that it's very hard to get me.. I'M REALLY SORRY!!! =( Got my sim card today and most probably getting a hp in a day or two.. FOC! =) In the meantime, call me at my office if there's anything urgent (like missing me HAHA!)

God is good all the time!
All the time God is good!

Oh gosh, I lost my hp. My faithful phone for the past 5 or 6 years... waha.. It's 6610 people.. Waha.. Even my parents have better phone than me la! LOL.. Now the hassle of getting contacts and stuff.. Ah........ And the diminish of my precious msges! AH, so I won't be contactable for a few days.. Spells trouble.. Sorry for the inconvenience~ And.. Don't tell that desperate stealer that my hp has chocolate in between the buttons.. =P Serious leh.. I didn't know my hp was that attractive wahaha.. What a flatter.. LOL~~

Anyway, went for Jeff's ROM in the afternoon hehehe... It was quite touching... Met up with his hong kong family again! Nice time of catching up during dinner at swissotel.. nice!

=)

All the ushers! Except me.. =)

One day.....

We do look slightly alike! I think.. =) But I was kinda tired cos I went down from work and! I

actually took a 30mins nap at suntec's Auntie Anne's before that.. (wave wave~~)

It's a long road ahead...

But they will live happily ever after...

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got myself a cello!!!!!!! My most expensive gift to myself.. To celebrate... hmm.. Life? Waha..

Jeff's ROM later!!!! So excited for him la.. Gonna take half day leave to attend! And then the yummy dinner after that.. woooo...

Wah a lot of things to pay....

Fret not fret not..
God is my Provider.

Applied for NUS recently..

Your Choices of Courses are as follows:
Single Degree Choices:
Choice 1: Arts and Social Sciences
Choice 2: Science
Choice 3: Nursing

LOL~
Ya nursing! Actually I've thought of it since sec 4 after taking O level result.. But guess the passion isn't that strong to convince me to take nursing course.. waha.. Thot it's kinda cool to be a nurse taking care of the sick though.. (aileen? a nurse? Ya! I'm an eclectist! lol.. ) and there should be more local nurses. However, generally, singaporeans are practical people (Refer to Choice 2) who seek high-flying and 'branded' jobs (my ricebowl!!) rather than low-profiles ones like social work, nursing.. But I believe that passion is the difference between a successful person and a mediocrity. Hence, with passion it can put you high up in a low-profile job which eventually make you successful. (and now I'm an idealist..? =P)

What is your heart saying today?

Ah, didn't go work today... Have the fainting feeling since ytd... No idea why so~

Talked to Weiying just now.. She's in Australia... And having food poisoning! Man.. I miss her.


Cai's in India... It's like she's totally cut off hahaha.. Hope she's doing great. Miss her much too.

Alice's flying to China soon and for 2 months!!! Gosh...

Everyone's everywhere.. Waha.. Eh, I was thinking of going for Taiwan's Emerge! Does anyone wanna go with me?

Something exciting's coming up!!!

My cello's ready for viewing this saturday.... woooo....
*All smiles*

Guitar class with David soon...
There got to be more female guitarists!!
May I be the next! (Not a question! but rather a wish I make for me wahaha)
Darren was kind enough to lend me his guitar
I will take care of it!
Cos I know how much it hurts when ppl mistreat my piano......

Oh well, one man's treasure is another man's trash. (Eh! Nice! lol..)
Indeed, inspiration comes when we are down... wahaha..

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Remember me not...
The one who caused you pain...
Whatever was I thinking?

I'm sure most, if not all, of us have bittersweet memories. Those are the ones which make us smile upon and then frown right after. It's like your heart's tugging at you, disallowing you to dream of the pleasant moments and reminding you of the unpleasant endings of those pleasant moments. Not too confusing I hope...

So that's bittersweet.
Will you still want it?

Hmm..
Considering that the 'sweet' part always comes first...
It can sometimes cloud our vision to see the 'bitter' part lurking just right behind...
Hmm.....
(Fill in your own thoughts)

I shall leave this hanging here...

I always believe that there's no shortcut in life. People who attempt to take that decieving route so often end up shortchanging themselves of their full capability and potential. For a start, they don't even have the foundation to hold them up even if they somehow manage to get there and they will end up back at level 1, or worse, at the basement due to the magnificent impact. People around them may be shaken unsteady too...

Always remember: The tortise won the race. =)

*Be faithful in the little things..*

Just a random thought while lying on my bed last night...

God always loves us more than we love Him...
Always gives to us more than we give to Him...
Always more faithful to us than we are to Him...

Yet..
We always need God more than He needs us...

Hmmm... Time to get my focus right...

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I was browsing through my pics in my com and most of them made me smile =P but when I saw engchang... I suddenly missed him a lot... The ups and downs we shared with each other... His craps... And our white skin... It's so random. Goodness..

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Jeff's getting married next week! =) Known him since I was sec 2... He heaved a sigh of relief knowing that I'm already 20. Xin ku ta le~ Loves~ Haha.. Sometimes random thoughts will fly by, like you will actually spend the rest of your life with a someone... I donno if you think it's scary. Hmm...

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I miss my mum too... I think she's the strongest woman I have ever known.. (ok i'm biased =P)
Cai's in India now... Please pray for her well-being there... Missing her too!

Haha I think I need I shall stop my random-ness, or rather, spontaneity. Haha~

*Everyone matters to God and He cares for us*

Bessie Braddock: "Winston, your drunk!
Churchill: "Bessie, your ugly, and tomorrow morning I shall be sober
Sir Winston Churchill (lol..)

It doesn't matter if you try and try and try again, and fail. It does matter if you try and fail, and fail to try again.
Charles Kettering - United States electrical engineer who made numerous automotive improvements (including the electric starter) (1876-1958)

Oh ya, I know my results are not exactly 'glorious', but I'm contented with them. I know I put in my best, I really did.. So I embrace them with a happy heart. =) ( Just get me into NUS arts!!!)However some just can't find joy in getting an odd 'C' amidst the 'A's... Oh what miserable life.
Those are the ones who make people go "Whatever... *roll eyes*" Lol...
Not that I'm mean la, but it's just a spontaneous reaction.. waha..

And btw, regarding my GP, I give no credits to myself, but all to God. My standard was only 47 for prelim (and Sally was trying so hard to make it 50, but to no avail). I wrote on women's right, maybe it helps too that I am a little feministic. Waha.. You can refer to my 14 Nov 2006 post which I wrote after GP exam. It's really amazing what God has done. Sth which I will never forget..

God, thanks for that miracle.

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To digress, they say 'A leopard will never change its spots.' I used to view that with a little skepticism as I believe that no matter how 'bad' someone is, he (as in a general term) can always change for the better... That's why I'm really into this whole counselling thing.. However when someone keeps betraying your trust, it gets a little exhausting to cling on to that hope that some day (just some day....) he will change. It gets a little frustrating that you have to keep forgiving him when it's always back to square 1. And not many things can be shoved aside like your old textbooks... Some things creep right under your skin.

Well, maybe a leopard can really change its spots? Maybe when it ages and matures.. When the melanin concentration drops? Or maybe it's me? Maybe I should look at the leopard at a totally new angle? Maybe I'm being idealistic to think that I can change those spots?

It's people like that that make me realise I am not as patient as I thought I was... Not as forgiving as I thought I could be... And so forth. However, it's through them that your inside starts to grow and issues you made a big fuss over begin to seem trivial to you now..

So ya... I think we need more of these people........... Er... Maybe....

Ok results' out. It was an emotionally draining day~ A lot of adrenaline wasted.

To save our phone bills,
Here's my results:

MATHEMATICS - D
CHEMISTRY - C
BIOLOGY - C

GENERAL PAPER - A2

Mood: Happily hopeful

Case closed.

What's next: NUS Arts and Social Science

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There shoud have some after-taking-results etiquettes. Like how to react to good results, how to respond to someone who is sad, things to say, things not to say, topics to avoid and so forth.

And we really don't have to know everybody else's results. Really.

Wah I sound real solemn here. Pardon me.. Just exhausted..
Went shopping with Diana after taking results and then dinner with Jeff. He treated! Yay.. Wanted to watch movie with Vick but tickets were sold out. Ahh..
It's back to my holiday mode today! Shiokness..

Holidays are never enough for me~
Never ever!!! =)